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these 2 days have been pretty alright. i believe God is guiding me though the things i see, and from the people that i talked to. Times like this - life's crossroad - especially this time, i get anxious and fearful. I can feel God as my comfort, guiding me to think clearly through the verses i read from yesterday's quiet time. Now whats most important during time when we are in a whirl of confusion is to stop. it is important to stay calm, and i am just on the beginning stages in ridding my anxiousness and fears while replacing it with calmness and faith and trust in God.
Its great to have people around to guide or whom would give encouragement, and i am always grateful of that. Whats most important during times when one feels fearful and at a lost is to calm down and to think in God's view, learn what God is thinking and listen to His voice. I hope to be closer to God!
currently now i have fears that are minor. i thank God for providing me them, to let me have a chance to grow in character and capacity in which i do things. alls good, remaining positive is all that matters. gotta do QT soon! wheeee!
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during this period, i am trying to pull myself back together again. i need to have more faith in what God has planned for my life and work my way to it. many times i feel lazy or just faithless. but as a christian, i feel growing in my faith in God is really important. my life is for God. without Him i am nothing, and i get to see that life would be meaningless without Him. I have to get back to God's word.. easy said than done but not difficult as well if i put my heart to it.
these days i get certain negative thoughts. bad thoughts of my life, my purpose, God's existence as well as friends.. well its just part and parcel of life... ok.. not JUST.. but i think i'll have to take these opportunities to help me grow as a person and not to succumb to what that might pull me down, and not to yoke with bad company or people that will drag me down as now i feel i'm not that insulated as a person. i should leave friendships, life's going-ons to God. many times when i feel irritated it only pulls me down and i can't advance up in life, in where i want to be - being affected easily emotionally by others.
other times i feel like curling up in a corner and scream why is my life in such distress.. why so many things i dun and others have? why i have troubles that seem unfair to me. then i come to realize - more of believe - that God planned problems, troubles for others that other may not see, but are existent. however i think its useless to keep compairing my own situation with others and it just helps me to stay stuck. i need friends tt will talk their trobules to me, help me with my trobules as well and not to brag so much about their own life and what their likes and dislikes.. God i pray you'll send me more friends that are this way and help me develop deeper friendships in the friendships i currently have.
wheeee i'm done for now.. :)
Wheee! back to blogging =). I've just deleted some negative blog posts. I feel it is kinda 'unhealthy' to leave such negative blog posts hanging in my blog. :) :)
It was kinda funny yesterday. I went to the mp to try to ask if they can help me appeal to the CDAC loan people to let me have the loan without guarantors. Before I enter the room, a lady took my temperature - 37.4 degrees. then after maybe 10mins they asked me to take my temperature again - 37.5 degrees. They claimed i might have a light fever and gave me the mask to put on! LOL... i felt a bit weird... Hmmm.. Then i fet the mask actually made me feel hotter!! when i breathe the carbon dioxide kept blowing back to my face and unto my specs. haha. I hope the appeal wil work :)
Currently I am working on a commission. It is a portrait commission probably for a 'client's' friend birthday present. I hope the proportions will come together and that I will be able to complete it by June. that is all for now :P
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