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Monday, November 17, 2008*

hmmm have been finding pictures and doing a little research this morning for my coming drawing.. all is going quite alright, i just feel uncertain how it is going to come along since i'm not like a real expert in putting my references together to form an idea i have, but practice makes perfect so i know with God's grace i'm able to draw creativity from Him and achieve what i am aiming for this drawing and also my goals in life. sometimes i have confidence in God for my future, but when i'm feeling down, i feel lousy and hopeless. i despise the fluctuating emotions... its stressful especially when there are quarrels etc etc at home and i get tensed up so fast.. i hate that feeling...

i hate endless talking, sometimes people should just shut up and listen! i'm constantly receieving so much negativity... and i am not a very nice person myself... sometimes i just feel life is just so difficult to live... maybe its just me feelin down now... maybe i should try to understand people better and try to compromise more... maybe its because i'm listening to a sad sad song hmmmmm....

i'm rather free these few days, i will most probably drop by artfriend at bras basah later on to get myself the colour pencils i need, will need to test the colour pencils before i buy though. but i'm excited to start my colouring for my drawing! ^^ life's too short not to enjoy, but i hope to get out of the crumpled state i feel that i'm in. but i'm glad going to church has made me a better person ( or at least i do try ). i remember i used to have an emo blogskin, but now i just dislike those emo thingy, so icky... i feel full blast emo style whether clothing, artwork, blogs etc etc etc is kinda fake. i know it sounds harsh, but i just feel indulging in negative things all the time, will just lead to a downfall... feeling down is nothing cool nor great... its like you can see something is really plain emo or genuine sadness or emotional.

man and its so difficult to find a good reference of a person looking up with the right emotion that i want to include ha. hmmm now i'm listening to some happy natasha songs... ok back to searching! :) :)

had fun at10:57 AM