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Tuesday, July 29, 2008*

here i am blogging once more. today my little researching on my interest to know more about art and the fascination about art that i have has let a way for a breakthrough in my thinking.

i was looking over at Armin Mersmann's deviant account. he is an artist that hugely inspired my passion for conceptual arts. i look through his interview on DA, he explained alot about his point of view what art really mean't to him and how he was influenced in art in the begining and his process. it made me realize that i was slowly losing sight of my goal, getting pushed out of the way by people's comments and my mind changed over time. today's 'discovery' made me think and wonder, it made me realize i as losing sight of why i love art so much previously. its a outlet for me to imprint my emotions, expressions that are only secrets kept between me and my mind. i forgot how much i wanted to ispire people as a huge goal. it explains even though my recent works are conceptual, but lack a certain atmosphere, a personal touch to awaken the atmosphere to convey what i truely feel. it lacked the outright straightforward expressiveness of my personality. i did not bring those into my works, the recent ones.

my fav work to date from myself is Concealed Nakedness.

that was the period where i had my effort in creating what was truthful, personal, a part of me, something dear. i feel that i'm fortunate enough to keep my sight back on track on my aim, that inspired myself in the 1st place. the term good art is often seen otherwise as technical. its as if anything technically inclined can become good art, but lack the substance of expression, flow, personal intentions on each element he/she imprints onto the medium. what i read and felt today, led to my rediscovery. i want to be truthful with my art. i want to experience, someday.. creating art that will inspire, emote a person to even cry, comprehend, appreciate wehat i put out in my future art. art is an incredible platform, it serves of great usage bring out thoughts that words can't describe, signs can't imitate. i deeply want the enthusiasm and yearning for art back in my life.

i have to constantly remind myself and not be shaken of the purpose i found in myself. just a piece of thought today this should be all i'm typing =)

had fun at9:55 PM

Monday, July 28, 2008*

back blogging for a little bit. nothing much to comment about these few days. just feeling strange and weird as i don't fall sick that easily, maybe have a fever 1 a year?? then these 3 days at 1st i had a fever, feeling faint, tired and aching and some back-of-my-nose discomforts on saturday. i went around my neihbourhood trying to look for doctors.. only the clinic which charges very expensive was open thus i just went home thinking and hoping the sickness will go. then on sunday, i think i had a slight fever, but in the end it subsided to 37 degrees so no more fever... but i felt a throat discomfort like two little stones pressing against my throat whenever i swallow things etc... today i woke up, couldn't get back to sleep as it got worst lol... so my past 3 days i have my life revolving around my sickness...

hmmm not quite, as i was bored of staying at home so i took out a drawing i called Asian Portrait wip1, now i'm back with about 2 hours more of extra drawing ( who knows the paper might be infected??! Argh!!!! ***. but i think i'll stop bragging and post my comment i typed about this drawing.

hi guys, back from my 'awhile' disappearance. i was trying to get myself away from the computer. so i hardly used the internet these 2 weeks. i have been working abit more on my last portrait i called Asian portrait wip, around 1plus hrs yesterday and less than 1 hr today. good thing for me is that i thought out a concept that i like very much its not very clear at this point but i pretty much hope the end result will be how i intended it to be

for the technical stuff, i'll still need to work more on her chin nose, and add abit more shades on her face, work on her mouth shade her hair etc... but i'm quite satisfied with her features already

right now i'll just call the drawing In Remembrance

heres the wip 2 ^^

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feeling rather empty these few weeks.. as i have not been faithful in reading my bible and having quiet time... if my spirit is physical, it would look like b0nes and nothing... imagine 2 weeks without food... maybe thats why the sickness attacked me like this.. maybe. i'll just blog till here, feeling tired already gotta go see doc soon =(

had fun at9:34 AM