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i'm back again to blog :). sch was alright today eventhough we basically do nothnig ( hardly ) related to studying.... well at least i got a new cd! today after lunch qiang ge, daryl and i went to gamophone. qiang ge bought alicia key's album while i got my kat deluna cd :D the cd title is called '9lives'. cool huh like a cat. i love her songs like 'Whine up', ' Run the show' and ' Love me, leave me' etc. i esp love the spanish version of the songs 'Whine up' and 'Run the show'. spanish is hawt ok! the way she sings it is really enticing to my ears haha. she has a fantastic voice. this is a picture of the other version of album cover.
last week i think maybe fri or something went out to lunch with them again and i spotted a lil flying lizard when i walked past the stone thingy outside the singapore art museum. got a shock lol
then we went back and take a look at it and later it suddenly jumped onto my shirt. its kinda cute though the lizard :D . then daryl went to catch it. here are some friendly shots with him and the lil flying lizard. haha
this are 2 photos taken of s25 for Kenny's departure.
this is a photo taken in the morning one of the past few days. i love skys like this. just wonderful.
and this rather candid photo of qiang. LOL i call this 'Forsaken'. haha its just some kind of random photo la, but i like how the light shines and the 'pose of his hands. it creates something, almost like meaningful huh? haha.
and this photo i took around the week before. see... this is how some fellow singaporeans reserve seats... i find it amusing about the method, pretty absurd even though not as bad as tissue papers :D
i think the last picture i'm posting is a photo i took just yesterday. after service in CHC, i went with my cell to expo hall 6 or 5, i've forgotten... but anyway, i saw triplets, they're adorable and pushing the doors. cute leh haha.
hmmm thats all i think for the pictures... quite alot compared to my other posts. now i think i'll talk about whats been on my mind lately.
i feel that i'm a very hard-headed person. i don't take comments easily and i think i am easily offensive without me myself knowing how much i hurt others. i have to change. through time i believe as long as i try God will give me the strength through the journey of change.
i want to have a better character, a person with good values. i have to cut down on random 'durty' jokes i talk from time to time. i'm positive that i will be able to change. through ministry and cell group and daily quiet time, i know He will widen my capacity to do things. i believe the more i seek answers in Him the stronger my spirit will be, the easier i can withstand troubles and other people's negativity and childish attitudes ( o man i know i am quite chilish at times :D ).
Jesus is my answer to everything. he is the reason why i live. He is the treasure that i seek. i'm really happy to have known Him.
i've been praying to receive the gift of tongues for the past week. i believe God spoke through bible verses over quiet time and sermon to me about tongues and having faith in Him.then yesterday during service pastor Kongpreached about prayer and the importance of speaking in tongues. then later he prayed for all in the hall to receive tongues. i felt God's pressence during the season. His pressence is amazing. i started speaking in tongues and i believe it isn't false and i'm not that doubtful about it - i spoke it more fluently than when i tried at home in the past. i had to break through fear barriers to start praying in tongues yesterday. was an amazing experience.
hmmmm God is an amazing God. i'm currently serving in usher ministry and i think it is an enjoyable ministry, one that can stretch my capacity. there were 2 weeks of internal ushering that i dozed off during service. i was really tired as i have a habit of sleeping around 3 hours the day before ( thats too little sleep for me ). then it came to last saturday it was already 12plus then i wanted to do my quiet time. but i talked to wilson over the phone instead and i did my quiet time later. i slept at around 1plus. before i slept, i prayed to God for tml's ushering and i prayer that he will provide me with the energy to serve Him so that i will not be tired and will gladly receive the msg the next day at service. amazingly enough, even though i lacked the sleep i was very much awake the whole time in church. i was able to carry out my usher duty quite alright. throughout the whole service i know that God was beside me helping me along. i am so thankful to Him lots. i was happy also that i did not doze off like how i would everytime i lacked sleep. He is the God of miracles. i will keep my trust in Him.
thats all i'm blogging for today gtg do my own stuff. :)
Wednesday, April 23, 2008*
hmmm these few days were alright. currently i'm happy that my drawing is turning out well and i am finally drawing the cage already! i drew it halfway out faster than expected and i hope to complete it by next week :) i'll then be able to explain my views about the drawing and the reason why i drew it and its meaning, i'm pretty excited about that.
today i bought an album Spirit from Leona lewis. she is a fantastic singer, really. i have not listened to the cd but i know afew of her songs from it. and i love bleeding love, a very arty song, with arty farty lyrics i mean deep lyrics. and i love the other song called 'Better in Time'. really beautiful song.... its hard for such a song to come by. a picture i found online of how the album looks like
i have always wanted my art to gain more publicity even though my drawings are not alot as yet, i'm lazy! still for a start i created this website of mind like last year. its kinda a free website. i don't know how to make a website from scratch lol well but at least signing and making a simple website online is my simple way out and its a great way to 'showcase' one's work, like an online portfolio. at the website i stated what art is to me. God is an artistic person and i think without art in this world, everything will be so boring! art is like every physical thing ( or music etc ). i believe my purpose is to make art and use it to glorify my God, Jesus. i'm really thankful for being given with the ability to really draw and convey what my mind things and my yearning to express myself.
here is my website link: http://www.freewebs.com/boyusflare/index.htm
these few days, i've heard people commenting about a friend of mine. people discriminate so easily, and i know i'm abit like that but its actually very much cleared up in my case. but for the people in my sch, they're nice people but i HATE their partial attitudes towards things. their way of thinking is only of low level, i'm not trying to bring myself up for that comment. i just feel irritated when they make discriminating comments and make fun of people.
some of them who are actually christians when they know they aren't supposed to speak of foul language they still do. that way i see them as hypocrites. why call yourself christians when you yourselves don't change? i don't hate them, just part of their attitudes. maybe i am too complacent. there isn't perfection in this world i just hope God will help me, guide me along to build up my capacity to tolerate gibberish and behaviour from others. i really hope that people around will want to change for the better. many whom i know are just blinded by the beauty of sin, many different kind of pervertedness ( if this word exists ). i'm sad at that.
for the ignorant person who tagged at my blog, thats how i see him as i've described the people in the previous paragraph. low-life people who needs time to change. they are the only ones who can change themselves, if they refuse, they'll just head for hella hell. in the past those type of comments i get from those nobodies - for example when i was sec 2, one of my volleyball seniors said i look like a vampire- would hurt me alot but right now these have not much or no effect on me anymore. its just at times people with their naive comments try to put others down, its better to live life to the fullest to disappoint them and their negative comments. fun isn't fun when such insults are thrown to the other party. its sad, but i'm glad to say that i won't dwell in those things. i know the tag was for fun, but it just sucks.
i'm so happy to be able to know my cell group S25, they've thought me lots of things, i am abit more opened compared to last time already. i'm thankful to the friends there who helped me to know more about God and character building. thank you God for sending those people for my improvement. i hope i will be able to do the same to help others improve next time when i've got the chance to.
i'm thankful to God for His grace and mercy and His love. people say God is love ( i'm nt sure if the bible says that ) and i believe that. i hope to show love to others God has given me and learn less to discriminate people. thats all i'm blogging for today :)
Saturday, April 12, 2008*
i'm back to blog again. Life has been interesting.. quite, these 2 weeks :) i've just been lazy to blog.i'll start from about 2weeks ago on friday, whent i was on board bus 51 back home after school. when the bus was passing aljunid/eunos road, the roads were, for Singapore standards, terribly flooded! the water was almost knee-neight. there were bus-stops that were like flooded and the people waiting for buses have to wait outside, behind the bus-stop for buses. the bus driver even asked in mandarin,' hey, do you all want to stop at the next stop?', coz the bus-stop was really flooded then the passengers could not alight without getting their cloths.. erm... flooded? lol i mean drenched in a flooded manner.. eh i just sound weird today, but any anyhow, here are 2 photos i've taken when i was inside the bus.
see and this pic, the water flooded till the treee, looks kinda cool in singapore :D
then after last week's cell meeting, we were walking towards Somerset MRT, was raining. then while walking, Xing Ni cell member S25, she demanded for my phone and she recorded her singing. it was amazing! chipmunk version without even a need to edit her voice! now i've even used the recording as my text message alert haha. but i will not post it here, for some 'privacy's' sake ha. :P
and this is a picture of fany and ming jie when qiang ge, biao ge and the rest were out for lunch during break from lessons :)
then i think this wednesday, it was Xing Ni's birthday! the cell members went to a hong kong cafe at marina square. i ate this... BBQ-ed eel ramen. tasted exactly like samon! hmmm ......
then see if u're happy and u noe it, cut and replace your head... if u're happy and u know it, cut and replace my head!
actually there were two sculptures, one with a head and one without. i just put my head on the other that doesn't have a head :D
lastly, we played a game and the birthday girl, Xing Ni lost! :D she had to eat the piece of birthday cake that is soaked in ketchup and spagetti sauce haha.
a 'Causual' shot i took of my sister while she was eating her lamb meat or wadeva that is :D that day i went out with her to shop for my jacket.
the close-up on food.
heres the jacket i finally bought. it isn't like really nice, but i love the font on it saying miracle of your eye. thats cool. i bought if for 16.90 as it was under around 50% dicount at ang mo kio, i forgot the shop's name.
finally, this is the book that i bought just yesterday, $29.90. just by the title you'll know what it is about. lots of artworks inside, very interesting and i can widen my knowledge on people's perception on certain pieces and know more about different famous piece in history. weird thing is i find that in year 1900s onwards, the arts have been uglier and uglier and less like good art until 2000s, almost rubbish. some of the pieces in 2000s just got a huge font, ART and thats all... and OPPS on another art work. anyone can paint of draw that out sia, so i'm like ?????? when i 1st saw those in the book.
now i'll have to get ready to go cell group 'soon' :) this is all i'll blog for today :)
Wednesday, April 02, 2008*
back again. these few days are quite busy. i ushered last sunday. was almost terrible at one point. initially i thought i was going to serve internal ushering ( which is really cool! ) then when i reached, the ushers told me my group is doing traffic ushering... then i wore a long sleeve shirt dark brown somemore to do ushering in the hot sun.. haha how foolish i am... i should have confirmed with the usher if i was doing internal or external that day!
than around 2days ago, guess what?? i bought christina aguilera's back to basics live and down under DVD! wow i tell you she is the most down to earth artist/artiste i've ever came across. through her inspirational songs to fun upbeat styled vocals, she is the most versatile singer ( most creative i've yet to come across ). many people stereotype her as slutty and bitchy when she is actually ossing with self-confidence and assurance. shes a great inspiration. i thank God for creating such a fantastic singer/artist.. she had the highest grossing singer/performer concert tickets sold out. i can see she will reach the ranks of madonna and mariah ( she is like a combination of both! ). i can never stop typing on how an icon she is.
here is the album a pic i've taken.
heres a close-up ( how cool she looks!
yesterday i visited my grandparents with my sis and mum and we went home later than expected. it was quite tiring, but still had my quiet time. i've been living day by day with quiet time as a daily acitivty. i know it'll soon be a habit. i'm glad i feel closer to Him more and more already.
today, in class good gang member friend, Qiang Ge... was sooo naughty and mature. he drew my hand with his pen today and i caught it on my camera phone! :D so much for maturity huh wei qiang! :D
and this a huilty shot of him O.o
heres a teeny weeny update of my Anointment drawing. not much changes but i can assure it'll look quite very different when its completed :)
talking about drawings... i started out one of my 1st ( probably my 1st ) serious referenced portrait drawing, the model is christina aguilera. this was done in around 8 hrs if i'm not wrong. it looks weird weird de but i still like it :)
then i webnt on to draw from jessica alba sincity reference picture for practice.
i pushed my bounderies further with this one though there are flaws and all, it was a good experience.
i've been thinking today, i think i should really concentrate on developing my art style and self-imagined drawings. i need to keep improving on my creativity. i used to be a creative kid in the past, but i know i have to push more bounderies to try new things to grow in art. i need to grow in mind, the way i think. i really hope to mix great artistic friends in the future. i'll have to wait for almost 10yrs for myself to start on my dream - to draw for living. i really hate studying and army etc. it takes up so much time. i really want my country to emphasize more on careers in art. singapore is an art-dry place as commented by my uncle. he told me he went to vietnam and sees art as a rich culture over there. i hope singapore will use art to make this country a more interesting place. i feel that this country is generally quite boring! sry for me being so complacent here but thats just the way i feel.
ha i think i'll just end here :)
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