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Saturday, February 23, 2008*

today i'm feeling not good ( emotionally ). i was late for cell group blah blah blah, but later went for the saturday service and the guest speaker was gave a really good message about fear. i'm facing things in my life that are hard for me to cope at this point, but i know only God can give me peace. i'm not satisfied with certain things that happened today but i know its hugely my fault and i needed to learn something out of it. haiz, i'm too hard-headed and need to change, i need to be my past self again. i was always striving to think alot about stuff in the past but nowadays even though i do still do that, i don't make an effort to think properly too much to verbalise and put my view across properly. i'm becoming a brain-dead person, yep brain-dead, not exaggerating.

i'm having trouble in paying my sch fees, such that if i don't pay a certain amount, i will not be able to start sch. God will pull me through it all, and i know it. this is just one of the many tiny 'hardships' God has put me through so i can grow as a person, even though i don't enjoy it, but still i thank God for it.

i'll stop ranting about negative stuff and go on to some fun stuff! here are some pictures taken that time when my sis and i did some 'facial' using orange. LOL i know it sounds, actually not just sounds crazy but is literally crazy! hmm well NPNT right? here are the pics :D :D

ewww what a mess!

the peace sign is the most convenient sign to look... erm.. stupid

the humans' obsession with oranges... hmmm

lol stupid pics, well here is an update on my drawing. i extract these words from my art forum page.
i've added the flower. fellow artist Lorah ( the model ) suggested lilies for the flowers i remember quite a long while ago when we last talked over messenger. i got some pictures of the stargazer ( forgot how to spell ) lilies and i realized that lilies in a way or another would very well represent life. the species of the flower has the word star ( light, symbolism pointing back at life, hope ). all the flowers i drew are quite 'rough' shaded not 100% satisfied with the details in real life.

the contrast isn't that good as shown here, i plan to add more darks to this drawing. this side of the drawing shown here is still not done ( left around 25-30% of work. the hand i used my hand as reference but i will build the shadings up more. i've already lightly sketched and shaded the other half of the paper ( not shown here ), the concept i will fully reveal probably in my last update or next update.

taken with my handphone.

thats all i guess, tml still got to wake up early for usher training!

had fun at10:37 PM