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Saturday, February 23, 2008*

today i'm feeling not good ( emotionally ). i was late for cell group blah blah blah, but later went for the saturday service and the guest speaker was gave a really good message about fear. i'm facing things in my life that are hard for me to cope at this point, but i know only God can give me peace. i'm not satisfied with certain things that happened today but i know its hugely my fault and i needed to learn something out of it. haiz, i'm too hard-headed and need to change, i need to be my past self again. i was always striving to think alot about stuff in the past but nowadays even though i do still do that, i don't make an effort to think properly too much to verbalise and put my view across properly. i'm becoming a brain-dead person, yep brain-dead, not exaggerating.

i'm having trouble in paying my sch fees, such that if i don't pay a certain amount, i will not be able to start sch. God will pull me through it all, and i know it. this is just one of the many tiny 'hardships' God has put me through so i can grow as a person, even though i don't enjoy it, but still i thank God for it.

i'll stop ranting about negative stuff and go on to some fun stuff! here are some pictures taken that time when my sis and i did some 'facial' using orange. LOL i know it sounds, actually not just sounds crazy but is literally crazy! hmm well NPNT right? here are the pics :D :D

ewww what a mess!

the peace sign is the most convenient sign to look... erm.. stupid

the humans' obsession with oranges... hmmm

lol stupid pics, well here is an update on my drawing. i extract these words from my art forum page.
i've added the flower. fellow artist Lorah ( the model ) suggested lilies for the flowers i remember quite a long while ago when we last talked over messenger. i got some pictures of the stargazer ( forgot how to spell ) lilies and i realized that lilies in a way or another would very well represent life. the species of the flower has the word star ( light, symbolism pointing back at life, hope ). all the flowers i drew are quite 'rough' shaded not 100% satisfied with the details in real life.

the contrast isn't that good as shown here, i plan to add more darks to this drawing. this side of the drawing shown here is still not done ( left around 25-30% of work. the hand i used my hand as reference but i will build the shadings up more. i've already lightly sketched and shaded the other half of the paper ( not shown here ), the concept i will fully reveal probably in my last update or next update.

taken with my handphone.

thats all i guess, tml still got to wake up early for usher training!

had fun at10:37 PM

Wednesday, February 13, 2008*

yesterday had tution, although i did not really complete my homework, but at least i did learn to get used to some of orking in chem. I thank God for giving me more motivation in drawing. i have strangely been feeling more confidence in my drawing, but at the same time, strangely the confidence level goes down. its really hard to explain the feeling itself.

hmmm then for today, i plan to do some homework, draw!, read the book Purpose Driven Life. i believe as i read more and consistently of it everyday, i will be a very motivated person ( i can feel that i'm getting there ), or even a better person after reading the book. i woke up today feeling lazy, not feeling too good ( as usual ), but i remembered what i read in Purpose Driven Life, immediately i became more positive of the new day. God works wonders in every aspect of our daily lives.

i also want to thank God for the belessing my family received including money other than hong bao money during CNY.

i'm so gonna get Christina Aguilera's dvd back to basics and down under. she is a fab performer with so much more stage pressence than fellow superstars beyonce so on..

haiz feeling a tad sian when i think of going for interview for private sch on friday...i hope it all goes well. hmm here are some photos to share at around CNY Eve.

i went for a haircut around 1 day before CNY ey
e and saw this fish at the salon keep trying to attack me! lol...

went out with mum and sis to cold storage to shop for food. i realized my sis has a weird habit!!

afterwhich went to mac and all the JUNK food!!! sinful indeed huh

last of all, the end of the day, some shark's fin... ymmmmy...

ha thats all i guess, not gonna post the cute nephew pics my sis took >:D

had fun at4:24 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008*

Happy Chinese New Year! its never too late to wish as CNY extends for 15days.. LOL
i have photos to share, but maybe on my next post. rather lazy to post them now. but heres an update of my drawing.

i'm back again. back from my loooooooooooooooooong drawing block. there was a period where i hardly drew anything and getting confused on my lastest drawing. frustrated that i did not really visit the site often ( i can't stand to see people being so productive at art while i was just.. stuck ). then just yesterday or 2 days ago, i just gave the drawing a shot.

i darkened her hair and certain details here and there. i changed her facial proportions to make her look more like the reference. i drew out some flowers and still gonna shade then up properply and give them abit of detailing.. i will also make the 'cloud-like' thing flowing down her hair more detailing to give the drawing a softer feeling to it. i created the hair ( very much different from the reference ) and also its details. right now her smile is quite stiff and i will reshade it later.

the drawing is blurr as it is not scanned. the bottom right bunch of hair is not overally as dark as shown here. hope its alright so far. =)

had fun at11:27 PM

Wednesday, February 06, 2008*

i'm feeling really irritated now... people who use blunt excuses... people who hardly know anything... people who use things for excuse of not to build up knowledge... irritating... really IRRITATING!!! freak U. when i'm telling the correct facts then you claim that another person is right ( you did not say they are right but the way you talk about it proves it... ). then later when i'm starting to prove you wrong then you start to divert what you've said previously to another thing to make yourself sound right. reasoning with u is like ???huh??? coz nothing will get into ur head! arguing with you is another thing, which then you will think talking loud and fast ( actually shouting fast ) at me make your opinion stand out more huh??? i can't even hear a single freaggin word from ya mouth la. thats all..... -------------_______________---------------llllllllllllllllllllllll

had fun at1:50 AM

Monday, February 04, 2008*

Today was a rough day. but 1stly i'll like to talk about my O'lvl results. i won't say how much i got, just only i will have to retake another year even though i'm still not die die go ite ( not tt ite is bad ). i'm starting on this year and i hop it will end good and i hope i will be satisfied with my Os results next year when i receive it :).

i worked at botanic gardens last week i think and i took afew pictures.

this is the greenery there ( these are bamboo plants i think )

then the next time i work at botanic gardens, it was raining on and off. i went to a nearby shelter wheneva it rained. lots of pigeons flew in to seek shelter too. here are some photos :)

more pictures for fun.. my baby pics. one crying the other.. erm.. just look like a baby chimp :l....

and a last one a teaser.. MEOW!!!!!!!!

ok now for today, it started rough. there was a quarrel at home. but later, it just got worse and worse ( not the quarrel just the aftermath got worse ). today i saw someone's worse day of that person's life... even though things seems alright on the outside, but on the inner, things aren't, i know. but i will pray to God again about today's morning incident. God will guide my way and i trust in Him.

then i went to wilson's house after then i went with tiff to go CHEC for the interview appointment but couldn't get to the interview as i and tiff did not bring our result reports today ( report book ). then we'll be making appointment another day :) then later i went again to wilson's house but i waited for him downstairs as i thought he was not home yet -.-' then when i was waiting, half of the time trying to rest and nap :D an old man talked to me and asked me to read the eng on the piece of paper. then i told him in chinese wad it meant ( was some sort of warning for breaking road rules :O ). then later he asked me whether i'm from China O.o O.o LOL i'm like huh??? then i said no.. then he ask if my chinese is very good then i said no.. how de freak can my chinese be good when dropped chinese and took chinese B haha. weird question sia.

then i watched a movie at wilson's com, romantic film i think was quite ok ba then later i went home and now typing on the com ^^ so long never blog ler so here i am blogging :) :)

now my plans for the few days.. is to draw and draw. i am having my drawing block, i have to get rid of my laziness!!!!!!!! haha i think this is all for now.

had fun at8:44 PM