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hmmn todae no go church. mayb after examz bah and juz bathed come blog juz now cut hair..... now my hair so damn short...... i asked the cut hair aunty to cut short she realli go cut up till >.< ................ diaoz.... den i tink i might nid to get hair spray or mayb ask my sis she has anot. coz tt time i saw hair spray in her room sia dunno izit hers.... haiz i dun wanna go to sch tml to take chinese mid yr examz! i take oso no use sure fail, really.... den i think i dun go for chinese o'lvls den can take chinese b.
i'm thinking.... still thinking of what to blog. o ya, i think my onli obstacle now n later is o'lvls and army. how i wish i am an adult nw or better still a little boy. for little boy, i remember last time i thought my parents could protect me from everything and that nothing could go wrong with them watching over me. i denpended so much on my parents when i was really young. i had so much fun with things like catching butterflies and play-fighting with my cousins and plaein with neighbours.....
n if i'm an adult, i want to get a job related to art and i will improve in drawing and start on painting and if art is my job, i will be realli happy, but still havent think about getting married ( too far sia ). and the next stage of happiness will be when i old age, i will make sure i have enough money to last me and i will enjoy my time till i die. wah.... todae i sound abit freaky lolxz! haiya but its juz my thoughts wad.....
or mayb i think my life would be much happier if i am in china, father is farmer then mi n my siblings and frenz can happily plae everydae in the medows and fields without worries and help out in farming. life will be so free. i think i will be contented in those type of situations... i never had the opportunity to enjoy the beauty of this earth.... my mind's realli shallow. hope i'll be a better person in terms of behaviour and capabilities in the future.
nothing much to sae ler so, signing offff................
Saturday, April 28, 2007*
todae actually nothing much... then got this man from dunno wad sports thingy wan gib survey about sports. like i noe shit about the brand and stuff lol. but nvm juz do... i too polite to push the offer. den veri lame la so sian 1 the survey..... ask wad imagine adidas as a human a person then describe his personality n blah blah and rate this brand n tt brand n etc. then after do survey i so suay get $5. my sis then told mi her frenz do survey get $10-$50! haiyo....
at least this time got improvement. the last time i did a survey a woman onli give mi a ehhhhhhh pen? LOL. but i rather dun do surveys in the future so sian one unless i do it for work then every hr get 10 plus wah good sia! then more survey get 10-50 dolas then i rich liao wor ha!
now i downloading songs for my hp my hp nid new list of songs so mani songs i listen until sian ler. then com system recovery tt dae all files deleted all my songs gone, GONE >.< haiz.... n i forgot wad songs to download forgot what singers there are onli few v popular ones onli i remember lol. so todae i later go study ss dun wan study chinese ler fail den fail i wan take chinese b. hope everyone hav nice time!
signing offfff.........
todae nothin much oso for the past 2 daes nothin much to sae on blog.... never study oso even examz are near i noe i suck too lazy and confused*. i wonder what will be my future..... haiz but todae oso nothin bad happen i onli skipped drama oral thingy... heck wad tt chia will sae later. todae i asked my chinese teacher sae,' lao shi ru guo wo fail chinese o lvls den wo ke yi na chinese b mah,' den she said,' reguo ni mei you pas, mei you shuo yao nah, xue siao yi ding hui yao ni na chinese b de,'
after i heard tt i damn happy! yay i now can heck care the chinese ler WHOOOHOOO! chinese for me is such a chore, i rather learn malay or maybe spanish than chinese heh ( such a disgrace to my race i noe... )
todae downloaded movie Big Fat Liar the movie is long from past but i never see b4 see see quite ok la, like amanda bynes, her acting hilarious and v good heh.
o ya todae going home at sch bus stop saw an old man so cute use style phone up till so noob looking bring up all the way to his face there the pic bwlow XD the photo not very obvious though....
lots of times i think what is the purpose of life wad is de world coming to? and why do i think? what can i feel and observe after death? too many confusing questions, life is misty no one will ever see the true picture of what life is all about. but i do believe in 1 thing. i believe in God. if there is no God there is no us. thank you God.
signing offfff......
todae is the worst dae of the year.
hate it..... sch was fine n cool ( the weather....) until eng period MR CHIA THE BAD ASS GAY teached. he alwaes pick on mi sia. can;t stand him i tok casually got broken eng embarrassed mi infront whole class to correct mi make mi remember to sae the right way.siao lor.... he never see the essays i do meh? he have the impression tt i'm damn weak in eng, i noe basics ok? i juz never concentrate on wad his question is, never think properly then answered wrong la sianz!
then guess wad he did for mi to 'remember' to get my english ryte? he call whole class stand n ask whole class if he got teach b4 blah blah eng method thingy then later call 2 classmates try teach mi while whole class standing idiot ryte? then write on board then keep repeating n repeating use gay gestures coz he frustrated ( think i nt frustrated izit damn ass?!) then i never concentrate his questions when i in front of class, v paiseh wad then whole class started to laugh when i answer wrongly n wrongly again, darn la! onli Joan she nice person call whole class to dun laugh sae they very bad.
then when tt gay teacher he cant stand mi he went out class for awhile breathe air literally... ( see so drama ) then came back in. then he told mi ( after joan told whole class dun laugh ) then he sae ,' see? in this class onli 1 person know how i feel' then he sae wad he feel sry for mi but later he oso sae he frustrated, then he said ,' i was resisting to gib ur bloody face a slap'. u call my face bloody??? BLOODIER than mi is U LA Fking arrogant freak.
i would have reasoned with him if he would listen, but he is the type of teacher wad ,' i take no nonsense' he ownself sae n he very think he clever? clever my ARSE! gosh he have no idea how arrogant he is, i feel like wacking him in his face and stuff durian up his arse! ARGH! then he roll eyes at he, want roll also do quickly la! he do it like he wanna bang head into wall like tt sia! for whole class see n laugh la! stupid dammit la!
then later i went back seat, feeling damn pissed and angry then he come to mi n told mi i nid help wad i nid concentrate in class i nid do my work and maybe i can be one of his fav student in future if i do things consistently. like i wan to be his fav student la! he think this treatment is good though its hard way? i got to sae i take no nonsense de la! this type of methods wont work for mi sia wa lau! never worked b4 on mi, i will alwaes hold grudges even if he is good to me, i pity him for having such bad and revolting behaviour and character. go hell man i will never thank you.
then todae nid to study soon so i tink i better go sleep liaoz later at night wakeup do eng hw -.-' and study.
signing pisssssed offfffff.......
hmmn in sch okok todae nothin bad happened. but todae PE very funny, got lower sec plae basketball then mi n 2 f4-3 guy tokin about one of the lower sec boy like blubber ( fat and short) he very loser his behaviour so hilarious that we literally laughed and kept us entertained throughout 1 period of PE sia. so saw loser keep shouting and he dunno how to plae then dun plae la lolxz.
then in class okok oso toked to gwyn, he better todae, nt sarcastic then we toked alot of things la.
then i todae take 62 home, got one guy smell literally like garbbage sat infront of me. then i very displeased i go sms ban beng, about it he ass la go put on his blog state the sms i sent him oso never sae properly. this type of thing oso wan put on blog sia. lame n call mi change my personal msg on messenger when i put something like i know i'm a big fat nosy person or something then he make fuss about it scared will get people attention and sae people alreadi wanna end it then sae i put that msg on my messenger is like wan attract attention. ehhhhh ????? i dun tink will attract anythin lor, cant even put wad i feel right? then i put my msg become forced to change personal msg.
lame la! then now i tink he appear offline.... -.-' nvm dun wan write too mani angry things later people sae i petty. -.-' -.-'
below is the pic of the old man who spoiled my dae.
signing off unfaithfully......
todae nothin much at home whole dae never go church very sianz. later wanna study geo, juz drank finish coffee =)
this pic was few around 2 daes ago i sat at com very long everywhere aching then i stand up took photo of this stupid sit
then my sister restarted her blogging, yesterdae she revived her blog but delete like 20 posts? coz she last blogged was like 3 yrs ago..... this a pic of her creating her acc back or something.
sian la nothin much happen goin study later on too bad cannt draw.....
okies i better shut up later keep bragging on n on.....
signing offff..........
Saturday, April 21, 2007*
tian ah todae or almoz everydae sian de i muz study later on!!!!
okies to start off, now i feel like a gossiper ( if such word exists). i onli tell ban beng some1 scold him msn in his nick then after i told ban beng, to confirm i went back to msn see the nick then later i told ban beng the person took off. coz in actual fact that person is stating frustration in msn on ban beng onli. but heck juz tell truth dun nid lie, nomatter the outcome at least i dun feel guilty. i will make a vow not be so nosy into other people's business the next time round.
hope nothin negative happens much but sad to sae i dun even noe whether i will go church tml, i realli dun wan go inconsistently. sighz....
i don't know about my future my studies, singapore is a tough place to live in, too much things i realli wanna sae but later i break my country rules of saein bad things bout country online. later kena sued oso dunno..... so juz stating here that i'm NOT pleased staying in my country ( hope this isn't strong enough for mi go jail LOL). i can die here. i envy those of other country who do not need to press everythin into their heads.............. we singaporeans can go crazy sadly to say but not that bad until everyone wanna commit suicide la.
no pictures todae, nothin much happening todae, i juz nid to learn to shut my mouth in the future and stop telling people things they shouldn't noe, i dun blame anyone liao, and tt business is totally not for mi to even try to start. haiz this song on my blog is realli how i feel onli the feeling nt not addicted..... is like walls are caving in.
signing off..........
i feel DAMN FUCKING irritated!!!! siao i'm like wad the hell when my father showsed mi the bill for my hp, i have to pay my own la! shuld be 55 dollars nia then go up 81bucks. i dun even noe y they charged mi $26 for free incomming calls when there is all day free incomming calls for all singtel plan. fuck ryte? over this i quarrel mi everyone la shouted at my family. then got wad promo 3G thingy, added dunno y tt damn bitch at handphone shop never tell mi about this! n i paid registration fee ler then down the bill still charged my fee! GREAT! and tml i gonna call tt handphone diot. n ask her wad hell goin on.
this one is the bill
and yesterdae got bee in my house then keep flying near the computer area where i was located at that time. i use the pesticide spray it then it cannot fly then slowly slowly crawled until like dragging itself, as it crawled blood was dragged on the floor behind it then it auto overturned and died.
this is a new pair of flops i have. not very nice looking but comfortable. bought it at $45 when promotion normal price onli $4 more -.-'.
todae whole dae quite sian but happy coz i working on my 1st masterpiece in art haha now quite nice so far.... and todae skip sch juz veri tired. please God give me patience to go along in life. please and i think i realli need to go church constantly.
all i have to say for todae signing off.....
Thursday, April 19, 2007*
todae in sch very lame feeling. dint tok to gwyn whole dae but he very irritating. keep singing, he sing until like moaning out the tunes.... diaoz. so gross la. then i like felt so annoyed n the feeling so clearly shown on my face la! then he on geo lesson for no darn reason take map n use finger tick the paper so loud like he purposely tried to irritate me!
siao la! n for no reason put his hand in front of my face when lesson going on and he clenched his fists directly infront of my face like wanna make mi scared. if it was in the past, i already use pencil stab him in the back lor -.-! veri irritating sia! then he do things in class so obvious he seeking attention and people dun even wanna bother.
i tot he is a better person, but he is still his old darn self. he veri hypocrite la! dunno when he tell wei en to motivate mi study then tt gwyn himself make so much disgusting noise in class tt he call motivating?l PUKE! and he should damn speak english PROPERLY!!!!!!! he think he speak like pro but not! he wont listen to mi when i tell him nicely like hw to speak properly, he ALWAES tink i suaning him. damn la!
y he wont take advise? i tot myself very insecure of other ppl ler then he leh? dun even take advice ( alwaes tink advises are insults...). n last time lesson i draw he call mi,' OI study la!' then he ownself in class keep smsing..... how ironic..... please take in PROPER advice! mr chia said imitate but do it AT HOME! i can't concentrate in class wheneva u do it! dun irritate mi! i said all this juz in case u ( gwyn) r reading. change change u shuld Change ( advise nt insult)
for mi i'm the type of person u people cannot be kind with. coz the more kind u ppl r to me the more quiet i become lol then i wont speak, hardly speak coz i dunno how to react to kind attitudes lol very uncomfortable de. really. so people who read this blog n noe mi plz tok to mi 'unkindly' dun tok like 1st time meet mi, my bad also la, i always shut up.
n todae, in class boring boring boring. n sit bus 853 with ban beng then show mi a pic he took of someone 'butt' like can see abit la the person so gross pants wear so low still wanna squat lol. then after tt i took bus 62 double decker home, the bus itself was veri empty there this the pic
i think thats all
signing offf
Wednesday, April 18, 2007*
yesterdae never realli blogged. my sis la one of her hamsters missing and i cannot find. then at night my sis found it behind the cupboard stucked haha.
this is the picture i took yesterdae, i funeral...... so xie men! TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD!
den todae morning i took pic of gwyn neo he never tuck in properly LOL. but i take this pic nt becuz i gay la, juz wanna post some pics... interesting pics..... i dun tink gay will even interested in him la.
n yesterdae i draw my 1st ink drawing so damn nice ( ok my opinion onli la) then i bring to chapel wanna complete drawing it, draw halfway, tt idiot vp caught mi and confiscated my book...... sian lor!
last thing is, please stop the rumor that i and tiffany are together.... i juz dun get this right! y tok to a girl as a fren ppl look as bf gf so strange! like tt everyone gays and lesbian oso can ler la! keep saeing especially tt time adam khoo workshop.... sianz la. she is a nice person so = good fren. you people should start tokin to her to know her better. tian ah!
people have idiot views on things which aren't true, look at yourselves before you comment on others.
signing off.....
yesterdae shet 1 never study! i went sleep at 6.30pm so early want to wakr up around 9pm then slept all the way till 5am.... then wake up go bathe.
then todae kena picked on class during eng lesson haiz n tt gwyn gosh dun wan to bout him todae, wait till i ren wu ke ren then i blog this.
den yesterdae in bus, i sit behind a lady in double-decker bus. she keep turning 90 degrees looking out ofda window. i look out of window she keep turning, SO IRRITATIN! den i in bus wanna take pic of sun but later she look at mi tink i wanna take her pic, so old lor even if throw at mi i oso dun wan!
den todae in BUS got one old man..... come in double decker, almoz fakll down n see a sit juz became empty due to a person get of bus then u go sit. he did tt like 4 times la! siao one. i think he like hot seats izit? people sit hot hot then he want sit..... lame sia. n todae online help banbeng gib links to the words for wordpower and told him to delete one of tiff photos coz she dun like people see, he n mi oso deleted. from our blog.
so later gonna study lit and do eng hw yuck! signing offffffffffffffff
Saturday, April 14, 2007*
todae still sian everydae like sian sian de. but todae ban beng sent mi a short video to my hp on bluetooth. the video strting till almost the end, is sweet video take of car moving in nice scenery then suddenly got a 'woman' monster one appear and scream lol. i was not shocked, but i kept laughing when i saw tt in class lol.
todae never hand up eng homework i can prepare to die ler and never hand up all files. n todae wee yang gave mi his handphone no he stupid 1 after i save his no. , i called him so tt his hp have no ho no. then later i sms him sae got anot he dint reply......
tired now hehe nothing much to sae or i think later i continue my blogging my brain nw blank yawnz*****
signing off ( juz heard my mum called out,' boyyyyyy what you doin? ' haiyo
Thursday, April 12, 2007*
todae sianz and tired, i juz feel sooo bored. skipped chem after sch lesson todae. go oso no use de. i dun understand a single damn thing bout formulas. how am i gonna past mid yr? i have no idea. juz feel tired
Uneventful day although todae got run 2.4km for physical fitness test. the first time i ran after a loooong time since i did properly for the 2.4km ran was like 3 weeks ago i tink my timing was 15.15min, the next week was 14.05 and this week, for the actual test was 12.59. improved alot since 3 weeks ago but my timing was still nt good enough, should have drank more salt added more salt to my cereal drink this morning hehe.
i feel a little weird to go wei en church this week sundae. my church last time ( methodist church ) believed about speaking in tongues while my fren's church doesn't i donno if i am making the right choice. these few daes abit tired and giddy in the head like feeling of fever and like got the feeling of food stuck at the back of my nose. horrible!
i still don't know bout my future even if i work hard.... i don't know if there is any use at all. art-related works in singapore are all so lowly paid, i'm like wad for putting myself in all these torture of studying? its unfair that certain countries do not solely rely on certs and wadeva in singapore. not a flame, just a thought. paper and paper and paper why does everything have to be on paper? even letting people know your abilities on paper to prove to people you can do something.
i just want to draw everyday for the rest of my ife. 24hrs a day is toooooooo SHORT! SIGHZ. at moz timez i m reali confused about wad life is all about, too many possible reasons.
my eyes are shutting signing off for nw :- i
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